This is hard.

I have nothing but work on my mind.

Or rather, I have happiness on my mind and how to get it via work.

The frustrating thing is i know it’s easy to get, but right now…

And I know this is what I want. I quit my job for it. i wanted whatever my job wasn’t giving me. I wanted freedom and possibility. And I’ve enjoyed it, and haven’t looked back.

But this is hard.

I work each day, do what I gotta do, and keep the glimpses alive of options; of pictures; of good future feelings of ideal scenarios. But I’m foggy right now.

I opted out of a childhood dream holiday to windsurf Western Australia so I could focus on work - force myself to work it out. 

…

I’m going to work it out.